If it would make me feel better and is a way out of this mess, I would live a life of idealism even more strongly now. I will seek comfort in accomplishing one difficult thing after another, things I hardly believe to be possible of me previously. That way, I will keep my faith up.
Yes, I'm that desperate. Regardless of the advice countless friends would give me in the months ahead that this relationship would not be fruitful, I would still continue pursue it until events render it unfeasible.
I'm sorry to talk about my relationship in such a manner so soon on this blog. However, it is mostly what I am thinking about these days. And it has become so intense that it has block out all my joy for homecoming.
Don't worry though. I still look forward to meeting everyone back in Singapore! And yes, my dear food too. It's going to be easy for me to adjust to a long distance relationship. But not her. I hope her maturity will aid her in this manner.
On to other matters...
Have I told you I bought a MacBook recently? Yes, it's incredibly addictive to use because both the laptop itself and the graphical OS X are such a work of artistic genius. There's no way I'm converting back to a PC or normal laptop for quite a long time. Apple Inc. has won me over with their beautiful crafting and ingenius user interface.
The sad thing is, I don't get wireless in camp. So I always have to head out for a 15 minutes work to get some connection to my laptop. It doesn't help matters that I heard our common computers would be without internet access tomorrow because of ongoing renovations. I'm so definitely taking my dear MacBook out for a walk tomorrow.
Although I'm having all the hates for Microsoft now, I can't help but marvel at the complexity of Microsoft Office. Figuring how macros work took me some time and looking at how complicated excel spreadsheets work with PivotTable system and all, it really got me dizzy. Still, I'm pretty interested to learn some associated skill!
Let's hope I can truly get some productive work going on tomorrow!
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
